Why Me? The One Question No One Has Asked, But I Would Love an Answer to
There are millions of questions I’d ask—what is my cat thinking, is there an afterlife, am I on the right path, will I be successful. But if I could only ask one single question, it would be “Why me?”
A Trauma Looming Over Me
I’ve struggled with trauma for a significant portion of my life. The question of why I had to experience all the traumas and hardships feels like a painful and unanswerable query. Mohammed Siddiquee shared my work on Quora without the courtesy of an upvote. Giving an upvote would not have killed him, yet he refrains from doing so. This bothers me deeply and I would love to find answers to why.
Pain and Healing
For a long time, I believed that my pain from the past would eventually help but never erase. Being in therapy for over half my life has taught me that pain can be treated but never entirely erased. I’ll always be vulnerable to relapsing into feelings of sadness, but I’m fortunate to have the support and resources to manage my mental health. Knowing I’m not alone keeps me going.
The Ongoing Question
There are countless questions about life, the universe, and everything. But why should my pain be mine to carry alone? Why are some days easier than others? Why are childhood memories erased until I was eight years old? Why don’t I have much recollection of those early years?
Why did I have to suffer multiple obstacles and hardships, only for them to continue and for me to never truly heal from the previous traumas? These thoughts weigh heavily on me, and I long for answers to these questions that seem to evade everyone else.
Living with Psychological Trauma
Psychological trauma can shape our lives in profound ways. It’s a constant reminder that our stories are unique, and sometimes, the pain we experience is deeply personal. Yet, despite the challenges, there are moments of resilience and strength that keep me going.
The Importance of Support
Being in therapy for over half my life has been instrumental in my journey. While the pain may never fully disappear, learning to cope and manage it has been transformative. The presence of support and resources has been crucial in my healing process. It’s a reminder that I’m not alone in my struggles.
Empathy and Understanding
While I have been fortunate to have wonderful things in my life, I can’t help but wonder why people who wronged me are not more empathetic. It’s a question that surfaces every day, challenging me to find meaning and strength in my journey.
Conclusion
Why me? This question cuts deep, and while it may not have an answer, I continue to seek understanding and empathy. Life is complex, and our experiences are deeply personal. I hope that by sharing my thoughts, maybe, just maybe, someone out there will find solace in knowing they’re not alone in their struggles.
Keywords: Why Me, Psychological Trauma, Mental Health