The Driving Force Behind My Journey: From Fear to Anger and Curiosity
For years, my life was driven by anger. Chronic pain I suffered, and the lack of effective help from doctors led me on a path to self-discovery. What I found profoundly changed how I view both pain and the medical profession. This journey, fueled by anger, ultimately transformed into a blend of adventure and curiosity.
From Despair to Discovery
When faced with chronic pain, the usual advice from doctors didn't sit well with me. Time and time again, I felt dismissed and misunderstood. Medical literature exposed the gap between what doctors know and the real workings of the human body. In my quest to understand, I discovered a plethora of symptoms that match various medical conditions. One revelation stood out: a number often classified as a mental disorder. This led to a profound realization.
What I found was a physical cause for these ailments, but because doctors struggle to understand the intricacies of the human body, the condition was labeled as a mental disorder. The frustration and anger over this injustice grew, fueled by the belief that people were genuinely suffering and being told they were imagining their pain.
The Power of Preparation and Mindset Shift
My initial journey was driven by anger, but over time, it evolved into something more. I shifted from fear to curiosity. This change began with practical preparation. I obtained a concealed carry license, not out of fear of being robbed but out of a desire to understand and face the potential consequences. This practical step helped me redefine fear as adventure and curiosity.
When it comes to survival, I have an unconventional approach. Fears like hunger, starvation, or death seem less daunting when viewed logically. Store food, and you mitigate the fear of hunger. Similarly, the fear of death is a natural part of life. Instead of dreading it, consider the two possible outcomes: nothing happens or something does. Whatever happens, curiosity pushes me to embrace the unknown.
Transforming Emotions Through Experience
My relationship with my ex-boyfriend brought another layer to my emotional landscape. The pain and devastation of watching him struggle were a turning point for me. The emotional turmoil led to an intense anger, but over time, that anger replaced the fear of further emotional pain.
What remains most is a driving force that compels me to understand and face any challenge. This reflects a deep-seated shift in my approach to life, fueled by anger, tempered by curiosity, and guided by a mindset that embraces both the known and the unknown.