The Complexities of Marriage and the Quest for True Love
At this point in time, there is nothing that I regret. Yes, there had been moments when I regretted some things that I used to feel were the best at some point of time, but later on, I ultimately realized why they were meant to happen, and I am all those experiences today. So, no regrets.
The best thing that ever happened to me is meeting the best guy ever who is just amazingly perfect. The dating part was good, and both of us were happy. He wanted to marry me. I was never the type of girl who dreamt about marriage or wanted to get married early. I always heard my friends saying that if they find a perfect guy who they love, they wouldn't mind marrying early, but I could never relate to that. However, one fine day, I don't know what came over me, I just started feeling like it's okay to get married and that I am ready. And then we got married.
The Emotional Changes: A Journey of Growth
Marriage has changed me a lot emotionally. He is a good husband, but the problem is not with him; it's just me. Maybe marriage is not meant for me. I started missing the freedom that I had when I was single. Don't get me wrong; my husband is not of a controlling nature. But it's just that you can't always do the things you did when you were single once you get married. The things you want to do without informing anyone you can't do it when you have a husband who is always updated about where you are and what you are doing. I also kind of started missing my home since obviously, once you get married, you can't keep visiting too often or stay too long. I also missed the freedom of doing whatever I wanted to in my free time. Once you get married, you can't do things alone. Also, if your lifestyle preferences are not the same, it doesn't feel much at peace when living together because there will always be clashes. With time, you will start wondering whether your partner regrets marrying you or is not happy with you. I am not saying I am regretting my marriage. I just feel like I should have stayed single for a longer time and got married later. I love him, but I am not in love with married life.
The Challenges of Married Life
Marriage is certainly not easy. There are days when I am completely in love and so happy to be with him. But there are also days when I feel like marriage is not for me. Marriage has changed me a lot emotionally as well. These are complex emotions, and they come and go, just like the tides. Still, life goes on. Let's see whether I start feeling different with time.
Feeling the Same - A Shared Experience
Is there anyone else here who feels the same? It's interesting to explore this shared experience. If you have any feedback or similar experiences, I would love to hear from you. This is my first detailed answer on Quora, and I would appreciate your feedback.