Reflections on My Future: A Dream of Contentment and Peace
I have always pondered where I will be in twenty years, and the thought of living out my years in a quiet and peaceful manner fills me with a deep sense of contentment. If I could have it my way, I would hope to be strolling among the banks of a river or creek, as a fertilizing source for a gum tree. However, as I am approaching my 68th year, I have grown weary of the struggles and challenges of life. In my mind, I envision myself taking my final breaths, leaving Earth, and finally finding rest in God's embrace.
Previous Aspirations
When I was in my late 20s, I saw an old man in New York City, who was seemingly frustrated and muttering to himself. This man, despite his old age, continued to walk with confidence, even stomping along as if on a mission. It was at that moment I realized I might one day be that old man, too.
As I neared the age of 50, I dreamt of working among the rural poor of Cambodia. However, life took an unexpected turn, and I retired to Canada at the age of 78. Now, I find myself considering what my final years might bring.
Winding Down
Around the age of 98, I envision myself in a small, pleasant study in the Kansai region of Japan, specifically in the cities of Kyoto, Osaka, or Kobe, a place that feels like a home away from my original Long Island. This cozy study should offer a fine view, access to a quiet and comfortable room, perhaps even a tatami room where I can relax and read my favorite books or music scores. I would like to be surrounded by an easy chair where I can nap whenever I please, while listening to music or staying updated with the latest news. Who knows, I might even be holding my contrabass cello or viola one more time, now as a cherished memory rather than a daily practice.
Living in Parallel Dimensions
While aging and making the transition to elderhood, I often wonder if we live in parallel dimensions or even reincarnate. This thought offers a sense of continuity and purpose, but also a touch of mystery. Some days, I believe we might live our lifetimes in a linear fashion; other days, I imagine we could experience life in a series of interwoven threads, each thread a lifetime in itself. Yet, one thing remains certain, and that is the belief that there is no place for a God resembling a human to greet me in the afterlife. Nonetheless, I hold a deep admiration for Jesus's teachings and strive to emulate them in my life.
Despite the challenges, I remain resolute and determined to live my life to the fullest, even as I face the realities of aging. The question of what I would like to be doing in twenty years is simply part of the journey, and I plan to embrace each moment with a spirit of joy and gratitude.