Living with Anxiety and Panic Disorders: A Personal Journey and Insight
Do you know anyone who suffers from any anxiety disorder? Anxiety disorders are common and affect many individuals. Seeking understanding and support from friends, family, or professionals can be beneficial. If you're looking for a community of peers with similar experiences, you might consider exploring my dedicated Quora Profile on Anxiety Disorders.
A Personal Experience with Anxiety and Panic Disorders
I have dealt with anxiety and panic disorder for a long time. Even with anti-anxiety medication, I still experience these attacks. While phrases like deep breathing and affirmations can sound cliché, they are undeniably helpful. When panic strikes, developing a mantra such as 'It's okay, you'll get through this' or 'It's only for a minute' can provide solace. Throughout my struggle, I have learned that self-soothing is crucial. Even though it's challenging in the moment, persistence in finding what works for you is key. Therapy and medication are important, but learning to manage your attacks effectively is equally critical for a positive outcome.
The Genetic Connection: A Family Legacy
My mother and likely other undiagnosed family members and friends have also been affected by anxiety. Although I haven't discussed my mother's mental health extensively, both she and her doctors believe she passed her genes to me. Growing up, I was known for being a quiet, reserved child who often struggled to express myself. This behavioral pattern has only intensified over the years. My anxiety and depression became more pronounced starting at age 7-8 and have continued to fluctuate throughout my life.
Moments of Clarity and Solitude
One vivid memory stands out clearly: sitting on the couch, truly realizing how slow the days passed, but how quickly the weeks flew by. The first time I was prescribed medication, the feeling of floating was overwhelming – I felt so free after so many years of struggle. In the darkest times, when my social anxiety was so severe, I could barely leave the house. For a time, I was homeschooled, spending all my days eating and watching TV.
Turning Points and Breakthroughs
The worst it's been was last year and earlier this year, but over the past few months, things have improved dramatically. I started attending classes again, my body image has improved, and I have a crush – possibly for the first time since my ex-girlfriend, with whom I think I have a mutual attraction. I now have more friends and am more confident in putting myself out there when it comes to singing and acting. While any progress feels like a victory, my current state is not even on par with what most people consider to be 'fine.'
Exciting Steps and Future Goals
My 16th birthday is in April, and I have my second learner's permit test coming up in two weeks, which I failed the first time due to poor study methods. Despite this setback, I have begun to believe that my crush likes me back. I'm also excited about the possibility of being in a lead role in a play that's turning into a movie. While these moments of joy and growth are significant, I acknowledge that my version of 'doing well' is still far from neurotypical.
Living with anxiety and panic disorders is a continuous journey. While the path is fraught with challenges, each step forward is a testament to resilience and the power of self-compassion. If you're navigating similar waters, know that you are not alone, and there is always hope for a brighter future.