Exploring a Different Upbringing: How Changing My Raised Environment Could Have Reshaped My Life

Life is a journey filled with different paths that one could have taken. If I had the power to change anything about my upbringing, I would choose to raise myself as an atheist in a naturist/nudist environment and avoid the physical punishments I faced during my formative years. Both these changes would have laid a more open and compassionate foundation for my development.

Embracing Atheism Over Religion

My childhood was heavily influenced by religious beliefs, which shaped my worldview in ways I now wish could have been different. If I were raised without religion, I believe I would have been able to develop a more rational and open-minded approach to life. Religion often comes with strict moral codes and preconceived notions, which can sometimes limit personal freedom and creativity. Being raised atheist would have encouraged me to question and explore different ideas and beliefs, fostering a more pluralistic and accepting mindset.

Naturaism and Nudity

Another aspect of my upbringing that I would alter is the fear of nudity. My early experiences with the concept of nudity instilled a sense of shame and discomfort that I had to overcome on my own. It was a barrier that limited my understanding of human bodies and natural living. By being raised in a naturist/nudist household, I would have been better prepared to accept and appreciate the human form without the stigma often associated with nudity. This would have allowed me to grow up more confidence and comfortable with my body.

Restructuring My Parents' Approach to Discipline

One of the most formative and impactful aspects of my upbringing was the method of discipline used by my parents. My father favored rationale and reasoning, while my mother chose a physical punishment approach. At times, this led to confusion and frustration. Although I understood that both methods had their merits, the physical approach was more prevalent and more likely to instill fear rather than understanding. Ideally, a balance between reasoning and gentle guidance would have created a more nurturing and constructive environment for emotional growth.

Lessons from My Grandchildren and Their Treatment

My parents' legacy is evident in the way they treated not only me but also my two older grandchildren. Interestingly, their approach to discipline was inversely proportional to their personal experiences. Since my second older brother and I did not have any children, my parents' grandchildren were allowed more leniency in behavior. This shows that, at times, parents often give more grace to those who are from another generation. As for me, my parents showed more strictness despite my efforts to be responsible and well-behaved, treating me as if I were still a child.

Photography Dreams Unfulfilled

One of my greatest dreams as a child was to become a model. I had an offer to model in Miami but was prevented from going due to being only 14 years old and being in two arranged marriages. This experience profoundly influenced my perception of love and independence. My relationships with family were strained, and my sister and brother stopped speaking to me in 2018. However, these challenges were ultimately a catalyst for my independence and personal development. I have since moved on and am content with my current situation, appreciating the lessons learned and my overall growth.

Reflections on Love and Personal Growth

Looking back, I realize that my life is a testament to resilience and personal growth. While I may not have been loved or appreciated in the way I yearned for, these experiences shaped me into a more self-reliant and understanding individual. The importance of love, appreciation, and personal fulfillment is underscored by my journey. Though I may never have the conventional family setup, I have found ways to embrace life and make the most of the opportunities presented to me. It is important to remember that every path in life is unique and holds its own significance.